i can only handle so much..

im bored, ohio is boring.

im ready to head back to california!

i dont really have much to do out here, no one ever has time to hang out, and well to be honest i dont really have any friends. the friends i had/have [here in the buckeye state] have changed, or i have changed[?], but no one really calls, wants to hang out, really doesnt make an effort to be friends. so ive kinda given up. maybe im dramatizing..i do have ONE who emails with me back and forth, so thats nice to have some kind of adult conversation. maybe when i start cosmetology school ill make some friends who like me for me and understand my personality.

im ready for the twins to start school, the past couple days they have been getting on my nerves, i think im just sick of teenage drama. i guess when you're around somebody for too long they just start to rub you the wrong way, so im ready for a break!

i got a letter in the mail today from carousel beauty school based out of dayton. they have a school in middletown that offers evening classes, but i have to call to set up a "career counseling session" and then figure out when i can start. im thinking they wont have me start till after the new year since i will be gone for 2 weeks in october. maybe after i finish school and start working we can get debt payed off sooner, and move to cali sooner. jon doesnt wanna move to cali, which i dont blame him, his family is here. but my family and friends are in cali and he has friends in cali, plus id be a happier wife and mother if i was back home.


onto the plus side, we started going to the gym again. it would be really nice if i could lose the 10lbs ive gained before i go to cali, then possibly a total of 20 by the new year. jon and i are still on the fence wether to have another baby or not, but just in case i wanna lose weight cuz ya never know! but we know for sure in the far future we will be adopting. we have a lot of things we would like to do when we get out of debt [whenever that happens]. im also way stoked to be going back to school. althought its not REAL school, ill still be able to get a job out of it and start bringin some money in and getting out of the house. i think i will have tons of fun doing people hair, and i can do my daughters hair and not feel bad after doing it :)

i think thats it, i may be back for more venting