sick and tired of being sick and tired

man oh man..i havnt been this sick in awhile. luckly jon has had this 3 day weekend so i havnt had to be chasing the kids around myself. right now jon and the kids are at my inlaws for the labor day BBQ and im enjoying some relaxing time, hopefully this will help me to feel better tomorrow.

thurday i have my appointment with carousel beauty school to see what its all about and see if thats where i wanna go. ruth was telling me about one in vandalia she said was really good, but i cant really afford the gas to go up there 3-4 times a week, so i think ill end up at carousel no matter what. I also received a responce from Aveda as well in cincinnati, but once again its all about the gas money, so oh well.

school out here starts tomorrow WAHOO, the streets will be quiet from 7AM-3PM and my house will be back to normal for me and the kids. as much as i love the twins, this will be nice. i know i vent about the twins all the time on here i really do care for them as if they were my own, and thats prob why i vent because they are a pain in the butt like Antionette and Canberra are. although sometimes i feel like im 16 again, i get wrapped up in their drama and argue with them. i now see why my mom would get so irratated with me with choices i made, and people i hung out with, sometimes i just wanna scream in their ears and tell them how stupid they are being!

im pretty excited, i get to go hangout with a friend of mine this week, i get to leave my kids here with jon, her husband will be out of town and we are just gunna hang out and watch a movie.

im sure i offended some people in my previous blog, but its how i felt at the moment and i still feel to this day. i feel i try my best to keep friends, but i guess i make choices they dont agree with and they're done with me, and thats fine, i like being me and i dont feel i need to change for anybody. when jon and i got married i thought i had to be the PERFECT wife and lds member, but ive realized thats not me. yes i have a tattoo a tounge piercing, but thats ME and i like it! i go to church every sunday, i have fulfilled ALL my callings but some parts of my religion of choice i cant follow a 100%. im sure every convert goes through a "rebelious"time and well this is mine.

well i need to go lay down, all this thinking is making my head hurt.

until next time